About

I was born and currently reside in the United States. Early in life I discovered I had an affinity with math, science, and computers. I attended Texas Tech University to study Engineering Physics.

Learning is a dangerous activity.

I've always had a sincere attitude towards life. I studied physics with an eye towards practical application. I wanted to learn how the universe truly worked. The nuts and bolts.

During this time a friend introduced me to an idea that forever changed my life. The concept was Gödel's incompleteness theorem.

To say my dreams of what I wanted in life were shattered is an understatement. I cared for nothing. I lost the will to face life. I dropped out of university. I did not have the stomach for it.

As luck would have it, I found myself living in a time and place that richly rewards those with an interest in math and computation. I coded to live, and lived to code.

For 20+ years I worked off and on as a software developer. I had a break in the early 2000's to pursue selling paintings on eBay, but eventually returned to software. On the side I thought and read much on the topics of physics, math, and philosophy.

After many years I found peace with Gödel. I found my meaning of life.

I don't know what this place is, but I've found a way to be happy without knowing. I wake up every day in pure amazement that anything exists. I live in this moment with a heart full of gratitude for this truly astounding gift of being alive.

Now I find myself taking another break from the world of corporate software development. I woke up one day and discovered I no longer had the stomach for it. Life is too precious to waste on things one isn't interested in.

So I returned to creating art. To writing. To building things.

That peace held. But peace is not the end of the story.

I kept thinking. About time, mostly. About what it means to only ever have this moment. The past is memory. The future is imagination. Neither is real in the way this sentence is real, right now, as you read it.

This is the deeper absurdity. Not that the universe is incomplete. Gödel taught me that. It's that we live pinned to a single point in time, struggling to build something that lasts.

Hope. That's the word I kept coming back to.

The future is a fiction. But it's a necessary fiction. Without it there is nothing to build toward. The story of tomorrow is what gives the struggle of today its meaning.

So I found a new question. Not "what is true?" Gödel settled that one. Instead: what builds the most hope?

Am I doing that? If not, why?

This question clarifies everything. Art, writing, code, this practice of playing with the bits. These build hope. They leave something behind for tomorrow's version of me to pick up and carry further.

I still wake up every day in amazement. But now I have a compass.